Lost in silence!

I lost myself while living to impress someone....

My true identity has vanished without values to remember....

Life has thought me so much till i feel nuthing left to learn....

I have always been strong but now????

I have always been bold but now????

I have always been stubborn for good things but now????

I have always had love for everyone but now???

Where did my positive attitudes has vanished.. in which part of life...

I cudnt think clear as before.... and let a tear for whom who cries...

That hard my heart has become just because of this single person....

I am willin to give my life yet i am not been bothered...

I was always there to show care but recent frens care seems to be more appreciated....

Years we know each other yet limited minutes u put to spend on me...

Nuthing much i ask just ur presence in my life even a min in a day will be m0re than enuf....

People say i am wasting time but i dun care .... i just want u to know no matter how i am treated i will be there with you forever...

I am hurt and broken but nuthing much can be said expect my emotional tears follows as it has no limit of amount and time...

Life can be unfair but not cruel...

You can be picky but dun play with my heart...

Dun keep me just because you might need me one day.... be with me coz a day is worth for u when i am in it....

I have always appreciated you in all the ways yet i am neglected by u in all ways...

Time will prove things.... God is watchin.. I am sure u will know my true heart one day...

Dun ever try to play with my heart which has no more strength to fight with all this...

I have so much to say ... but my expressing way might hurt u in a way...

After all this i just cud say No matter wat i am ther for you....

My hero!!!

Hayden Christensen

Guy that stole my heart in a glance!!!!!

Love

Broken Heart!!!!

Still broken?????

Still broken.....

No shoulders to lease my burden on.....

Tears keeps producin in my lacrimal ducts.....

My emo heart .........

Things will never change...........

Heart has been broken!!!

Heart skips a beat when things seems to be wrong!

I am totally worn and torn...

No trust left in my heart for anyone...

Things have come to and end....

Life is to be so i guesss....

Totally speechless.... Only my tears cud answer the ache in my heart...

No one to share the sorrow...

So deep i feel the pain worst than a knife throbbing pain on the muscles of the heart...

This is called life....

U feel its fair or not u have to go thru coz there is 2mrw till ur expiry date!!!

My sad days never end....

Want to smile to feel good but cudnt find a reason to smile...

My luck is so bad nuthing good left in my life!!!

Whom shud i complain tooo....

Mentally and emotionally cudnt rationalize things....

If i wud to complain where does my faith on god has gone....

God do i deserve this????

That cruel life cud treat me... Wat was my biggest sin???

Maybe i wasnt a total angel yet i wasnt a devil....

I know myself.....

All my trust has broken...

No words left to explain....

No path of mine in life has a second choice...

Guess have to live this way... How long???

I didnt ask for this.... Yet i know its part of UR test yet this i cudnt bear...

God plz help me pass thru all this thorns ....

Negative thoughts swings me along the depression path....

If i had a choice i wud like to ease my soul in peace now!!

Where has gone the good part of life!!!

Meaningless life?? For wat???

Oh god i cant bear this!!!! Wish it had never happen....

Its hard to breath .... yet more hard to live this way...

Answer??/?

Saby

Nurse To Become SOON!!!!

Nurse

Dedicated!

Motivated!

Inspired!

Rational!

Polite and kind!

Caring... LOVING!!!

Pleasure to help others!

Kind of excited coz in medical field!

Irritaed when not appreciated!

Well done job yet also been scolded!

Never give up!

Hard times!

Nightingales!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dun Leave me DuDe!!!!

Promise me!

I promise you I will never hurt you.
I will treat you right.
I will always listen.
I will always respect you.
I'll show you love.
I'll give you patience.
I will be your friend.

Life Is Beautiful!

Starting my day with my smile makes a lot of diffirence....
Smile is not forced out of my emotions, it just appears reflecting my mood..
Talking out of real emotions things are totally messed up if i think about past and worried about future...
Anyway i belive today shapes my future and creates a history as past makin it worth is my job...
I belive nuthing is impossible yet making things possible need some effort...
Holding up on a relationship... education.. mindset.... social status.... and watever connected to my life.... Its goin to be just fun once i know how to move my cards....
Hearing stories from the crowd of people i know makes me learn a lot and realise that i am not far more worst than anyone...
Holding up on good points builds a person in anyways... just destory the negative points by reminding nobody is perfect..
Nobody has the rights to complain about anyone cause everyone learns by mistake..... A person can make all the mistakes by them themselve huh.... U wont have enough time for that... So start sharing ur probs and negative things with ur friends and family to alert others in a way they also learn....
If u are not proud of urself nobody will be neah...

Just a lil bit of crapness....

Addicted to YOU!

Happy valentine day!

My Mysterious Valentine day!!!!!





A parcel from singapore.




Wonderin wat it cud be!




Wow WEBCAM!!!!!!!!!!!




Looks nice neah!





Yeah can use webcam ready!






Time to install!




Mystery flower!!!!




From ADMIRER???? Who?????




Wonderin badly??? I have a admirer???






eXcItEd !!!!! First time i received a bouque!!!!!




Thanks a lot whoever sent it.... I love it!!!!

Thanks a lot admirer u made my day.

My day was so perfect!

Gifts sent with love to me....

Some mystery flowers i did get... but wonder who sent ...

Someone who i loved sent me love by air!

Love u dude! Miss my love a lot!!!! Wish u were here with me!!!!!

Dude dun get jealous over the guy who sent me flowers.... :)

Valentine post!

Best drama to watch for valentine!!!
Keep the spirit for ur loved ones never give up...

Tittle: Itazura Na Kiss
Link: http://www.mysoju.com/itazura-na-kiss/

Alternative Title: イタズラなKiss
Genre: Comedy, High School , Romance
Film Date: October, 1996
Total Videos: 9
Japan Casts:Akashi Ryotaro, Aoki Shinsuke, Hoshino Aki, Kashiwabara Takashi, Miyauchi Tomomi, Sato Aiko, Tohyama Toshiya


Description:
Late for a meeting, Kotoko (Sato) was running along the corridor in school and bumped into Naoki (Kashiwabara), their lips meeting. Naoki showed his disgust, but Kotoko started to idolise him, who was good at everything from studies to sports. When Kotoko's house was burnt, her father's good friend Machiko invited them to move in with her family. It was then that Kotoko realised Naoki was the elder son of Machiko, who took up the role of a fairy-godmother to bring the two together...despite the fact that Naoki was disgusted. Not discouraged, the clumsy and not-so-bright Kotoko started to do everything that would change her impression on him. Gradually, the icy-cold Naoki who disliked girls started to feel for Kotoko...

History of Valentine

As early as the fourth century B.C., the Romans engaged in an annual young man's rite to passage to the God Lupercus.

The names of the teenage women were placed in a box and drawn at random by adolescent men; thus, a man was assigned a woman companion for the duration of the year, after which another lottery was staged.

After eight hundred years of this cruel practice, the early church fathers sought to end this practice...

They found an answer in Valentine, a bishop who had been martyred some two hundred years earlier.

According to church tradition St. Valentine was a priest near Rome in about the year 270 A.D. At that time the Roman Emperor Claudius-II who had issued an edict forbidding marriage.This was around when the heyday of Roman empire had almost come to an end.

Lack of quality administrators led to frequent civil strife. Learning declined, taxation increased, and trade slumped to a low, precarious level.

And the Gauls, Slavs, Huns, Turks and Mongolians from Northern Europe and Asian increased their pressure on the empire's boundaries.

The empire was grown too large to be shielded from external aggression and internal chaos with existing forces.

Thus more of capable men were required to be recruited as soldiers and officers.

When Claudius became the emperor, he felt that married men were more emotionally attached to their families, and thus, will not make good soldiers.

So to assure quality soldiers, he banned marriage.Valentine, a bishop , seeing the trauma of young lovers, met them in a secret place, and joined them in the sacrament of matrimony. Claudius learned of this "friend of lovers," and had him arrested.

The emperor, impressed with the young priest's dignity and conviction, attempted to convert him to the roman gods, to save him from certain execution.

Valentine refused to recognize Roman Gods and even attempted to convert the emperor, knowing the consequences fully.On February 24, 270, Valentine was executed."From your Valentine"While Valentine was in prison awaiting his fate, he came in contact with his jailor, Asterius. The jailor had a blind daughter.

Asterius requested him to heal his daughter.

Through his faith he miraculously restored the sight of Asterius' daughter.

Just before his execution, he asked for a pen and paper from his jailor, and signed a farewell message to her "From Your Valentine," a phrase that lived ever after.

Valentine thus become a Patron Saint, and spiritual overseer of an annual festival.

The festival involved young Romans offering women they admired, and wished to court, handwritten greetings of affection on February 14.

The greeting cards acquired St.Valentine' s name.

The Valentine's Day card spread with Christianity, and is now celebrated all over the world.

One of the earliest card was sent in 1415 by Charles, duke of Orleans, to his wife while he was a prisoner in the Tower of London.

The card is now preserved in the British Museum

FOR YOU I'D GIVE MY LIFE!!!!!

A note for SOMEONE i Love!!!!


How do i tell I LOVE YOU when all u do ask is why?
Which even i cant find a reason for?
And why must i answer when u could see the love in my eyes?
All i could think of is, u are the breath for my life.
And when will u truly see that i cant breath without you?
I am able to carry heavy loads
But 'A PAIN IN MY SOUL' seems to bring me so low.
Who cares about what others say?
They dont know what pain i am goin through.
Day and night i cry hoping that my tears will bring u back.
Nuthing left to say anymore, only my tears cud answer
how much i am in love.
Maybe it may sound silly to world if i say " if its not u its no one "
But thats the prinsip i hold to.
My heart has been locked with u in it, has no place for others.
You may feel i'm not the one but Lord knows i'm not the worst.
I loved you when it all begun, even if it seems like it's now cursed.
Although times are tough and i'm not livin right, you'll always be my light,
I didnt even think of forgettin u how can u ask me to forget u.
Our friendship bloomed into love how can i get back to stage one again.
Never sayin a word cause if the love is truly there,
Then it'll speak for itself first.
FOR YOU I'D GIVE MY LIFE!

Saby

You took my Heart Away

Staring at the moon so blue

Turning all my thoughts to you

I was without hopes or dreams

I tried to dull an inner scream

But you...

Saw me through

Walking on a path of air

See your faces everywhere

As you melt this heart of stone

You take my hand to guide me home

And now...

I'm in love

You took my heart away

When my whole world was gray

You gave me everything

And a little bit more

And when it's cold at night

And you sleep by my side

You become the meaning of my life

Living in a world so cold (living in a world so cold)

You are there to warm my soul (you are there to warm my soul)

You came to mend a broken heart

You gave my life a brand new start

And now...

I'm in love

You took my heart away

When my whole world was gray

You gave me everything

And a little bit more

And when it's cold at night

And you sleep by my side

You become the meaning of my life

Holding your hand

I won't fear tomorrow

Here where we stand

We'll never be alone

You took my heart away

When my whole world was gray

You gave me everything

And a little bit more

And when it's cold at night

And you sleep by my side

You become the meaning of my life

You become the meaning of my life

You become the meaning

You become the meaning of my life

You keep me running!!!!!!!

I never met anotherone

who made my life so much fun

'cos every moment I'm with you

I never know what you're gonna do

Every day you change your mind

do something different all the time

Life is a game you wanna play

twentyfour hours a day

It's funny how

Chorus:

You keep me running going and coming

I like the feeling it's out of control

There's no denying you send me flying

I'm hoping you catch me when I fall

You drive me crazy but I don't mind

someone like you is hard to find

I like the way you're moving around

In your world everything is upside down

Every day you change your mind

do something different all the time

Life is a game you wanna play

twentyfour hours a day

It's funny how

Chorus:

You keep me running going and coming

I like the feeling it's out of control

There's no denying you send me flying

I'm hoping you catch me when I fall

Even if you want to go alone( i will be waiting)

Don’t know what to say now
Don’t know where to start
Don’t know how to handle
A complicated heart
You tell me you are leaving
But I just have to say
Before you throw it all away

Even if you want to go alone
I will be waiting when you’re coming home
If you need someone to ease the pain
You can lean on me my love will still remain

Don’t know what you’re thinking
To me it seems quite tough
To hold a conversation
When words are not enough
If this is your decision
And there’s nothing I can do
I can only say to you

Even if you want to go alone
I will be waiting when you’re coming home
If you need someone to ease the pain
You can lean on me, my love will still remain

Even if you want to go alone
(I’ll be waiting when you’re coming home)
If you need someone to ease the pain

Even if you want to go alone
If you need someone to ease the pain

Even if you want to go alone
If you need someone to ease the pain
Lean on me, my love will still remain

Deep Down!

Bein Dis Way To Make Up OtherS Day!!!

Miss most now!!!!!!!!!!!!

The person that i miss most in my life!!!!!!!!!!

Just Be Happy!!!!!!

You can be happy.
You can live the life you want to live.
You can become the person you want to be.
This is what I've figured out so far.
Stop assigning blame.
This is the first step.
Stop assigning blame and leave the past behind you.
You know whose fault it is that your life isn't perfect.
Your boss. Your teachers. Your ex-lovers.
The ones who hurt you, the ones who abused you, the ones who left you bleeding.
Or even yourself.
You know whose fault it is — you've been telling yourself your whole life.
Knowing whose fault it is that your life sucks is an excellent way to absolve yourself of any reponsibility for taking your life into your own hands.
Forget about it. Let it go. The past isn't real. “That was in another country, and besides, the wench is dead.”
If we're not talking about something that is real and present and in your life right now, then it doesn't matter.
Nothing can be done about it.
If nothing can be done about it, then don't spend your energy dwelling on it — you have other things to do.
I may sound cruel, I may sound simplistic, I may sound like I'm saying you should just “get over it,” by suggesting that you should let go of your past.
I'm sorry for that. But life won't hold still and wait for you to lick your wounds.
The race is still being run. Get up and keep moving. You can't do anything about yesterday.
You can do something about tomorrow.
And about the next day.
Focus your energies there. “I don't have time to write.” “I can't dance.” “I can't talk to new people.” “I'm not attractive.” I hear this all the time.
I always hear the people around me sabotaging themselves, drawing lines and borders and boxes around themselves.
To which I say, make the time; dance; just talk to people; be attractive!
Yes, again, it's simplistic of me to say that.
But it's simplistic of you to so easily say what you cannot do!
We're excellent pattern-matchers. That's what the human mind does — it's a pattern-matching engine.
So we look at ourselves, at our history, at our behaviors, and we draw straight lines between the points — we assume that just because we've done things a certain way in the past, we'll always do them that way in the future.
If we've failed before, we'll always fail. Screw that.
Surprise yourself. No — amaze yourself. You don't have to keep doing the things you hate.
Why go home and beat yourself up for, say, not going over and saying a few words to someone you find really attractive?
Can any damage they could do to you by rejecting you possibly be any worse than the damage you're going to do to yourself for missing the chance?
Find the demon.
Do you know what I'm talking about? It's the little voice in the back of your head that's always whispering, “You can't.” You know the demon.
You may think you hate the demon, but you don't. You love it. You let it own you.
You do everything it says. Everytime there's something you want, you consult the demon first, to see if it will say, “You can't have that.” What you don't realize is that your demon doesn't know anything. It's an idiot.
It's nothing but a parrot, repeating back to you anything negative that it's ever heard, anything that makes you hurt, makes you squirm. If a teacher once told you “You'll never accomplish anything,” it was listening; it hoards words like that and repeats them back to you to watch you jump.
It doesn't know what it's saying. It doesn't care. Exorcise yourself.
You can take me literally or not, as suits you.
But do, please, the next time you hear that voice in your head, imagine it, visualize it, as something physical that you can get hold of; tear it out of you, feel its fingers weaken and lose their grip on your spine, and grind it to dust, to nothing, under your boot heel on your way out to dance in the streets.
You can. You think you can't; but it's telling you that. You can.
You don't exist. You just think you do.
We're nothing but the stories we tell ourselves.
We know in our hearts what kind of people we are, what we're capable of, because we've told ourselves what kind of people we are.
You're a carefully-rehearsed list of weaknesses and strengths you've told yourself you have. (Self-confidence, for example, is a particularly nebulous quality you can easily talk yourself out of having.)
You owe no allegiance to that self-image if it harms you. If you don't like the story your life has become — tell yourself a better one.
Think about the person you want to be and do what that person would do. Act the way that person would act.
Amazingly enough, once you start acting like that person, people will start treating you like that person. And you'll start to believe it.
And then it will be true. Welcome to your new self.
You are a product of your environnent.
Most people realize this — usually, in the form of having something else to blame — but they tend to forget one important fact: Humans are the masters of changing their environment.
What this means is that if your environment affects you, and you can affect your environment, then obviously, you can affect yourself.
Your environment includes people. Figure out who in your life isn't good for you, whose presence tears you down more than it builds you up, whose nearness is poison to you — and get rid of them. Get them out of your life.
I don't care if it's your best friend, your boss, your mother, your lover — if they are harming you, if they are doing nothing but reinforce everything bad you tell yourself about yourself, then your relationship with them needs to radically alter or it needs to end.
Your environment includes goals. Don't set yourself pie-in-the-sky impossible goals and then beat yourself up over not achieving them — set yourself goals that will be good for you, not a source of pain.
Attainable goals. Set them and meet them. Don't tell yourself you can't — that's the old story, that story you used to tell yourself about what a poor sad victim you were and how you could never change anything about your life.
You can meet your goals. This is the new story. Trying to clean your house?
Good for you — a clean house can really affect your state of mind for the better. But don't say “Today I'm going to clean the entire house from top to bottom,” when you don't have the time and energy to — don't set yourself up for failure; don't feed the demon.
Just say, “Today I'm going to wash all the dishes and clean off the kitchen counter.” And do it. Don't tell yourself, “This month I'm going to write that novel.” Tell yourself, “Today I'm going to write five pages.” And do it.
Take your dreams and break them down into small pieces and you'll have them in your hands before you know it.
And you'll find, as you start meeting your goals, that you like it.
That it feels good, makes you feel confident and capable.
You'll develop a hunger for it.
Your environment includes yourself — your physical presence.
Do what you know you need to do — treat yourself better.
Sleep, eat right, exercise.
This doesn't mean you have to stop staying out late at night now and then, it doesn't mean you can't have a candy bar, it doesn't mean you have to stop sitting around watching television — it just means start doing the things that are good for you as well as the things that are bad for you, every so often.
It's not an all-or-nothing proposition; you don't have to devote your life to being a health nut. Just try eating more fruits and vegetables, the occasional vegetarian meal; go for walks in the park on the weekends.
You'll feel better and be more alert if you're a little healthier, and once you start feeling a little better, you'll start wanting the things that make you feel better.
You'll see. Your environment includes your appearance.
If you're not happy with yourself, if you're angry with the person in the mirror, it can honestly help to literally change who you see when you look in the mirror.
Try a different hairstyle, new glasses, new jewelry, new clothes. It doesn't have to be expensive — there's a whole universe full of possible You's waiting to be found in thrift stores, if need be.
If you're deciding to become the person you want to be, then decide what that person is going to look like. Dress the part.
It's not shallow, it's not about vanity, it's about self-transformation — even the most primitive tribes understand the value of costumes and masks for ritual, for change, for becoming someone else. You are not an object.
You are a system.
Like with any system, if you change the inputs — change what goes into it — you'll change what comes out. Despite everything I've just said: Self-examination can be paralysis. Don't “remember to breathe” — just breathe. It's a Tao thing. It's the paradox at the center of all this — remember that, “Am I living up to being the person I want to be?”, is not a question the person you want to be would ask. If I can leave you with just one thought, it's this: Stop wasting your time fretting over not being happy. Just be happy.

Value Of Money!

Value Of Money!!!!!!

I met money one day.

I said, "You are just a piece of paper."

Money smiled and said,

"Of course I'm a piece of paper,but I haven't seen a dustbin yet, in my life".